Paraesthesia

i am sure this happens with all of us at some point(s) in our lives ...you are looking for something .. and accidentally bump into an object of much greater significance...rader i shud say of greater worth ... for the pst few days i am feeling kinda numb ...numb with dissatisfaction about life... and having not much to do i thot of wikiying numbness...and voila!....guess what word i stumbled upon...its Paraesthesia ... to quote ".. sensation of tingling, pricking, or numbness of a person's skin ...." ...and man was i surprised ..apparently its represents two polar opposite sensations in a single entity...one of hypersensitivity ...and the oder the lack of any feeling .....this duality is perhaps why the word struck my fancy.... it pretty crisply describes my current state of being...wen i am recalling all the supposedly misfortunate situations that life has served me unfairly ... there are times wen i feel totally restless...that i need to get and do something immediately..break someone's nose for betraying me... hurt somebody's feeling just the way they did to me... break the security bonds of this life sucking sedentary challengeless life and venture out into the wild life that always exicted me.... to reaaly start living life rader than counting the minutes left to going to bed for the day.... and the urge is to do all dese at the same time...so much so that i cant sit quitely at a place....i prance around feeling restless.. and then again comes the phase when i simply resign myself to whatever is coming my way... feelings like " what's the guanrantee that my efforts wont be fruitless like my previous undertakings to imporve life"..."all is dependant on ur luck..and thats something that cant be changed"... bog me down... i spend days and nights in aimless ruminations.... both the situations however have one thing in commom... i waste the unforgiving minute in negative actions instead of filling it with sixty second's worth of distant run...